I cannot expres how excited I am to be apart of the Susan G Komen Family for the third year in a row to participate in the Philly 60 mile 3 Day. Like everyone here my life has been extremely affected by cancer. I have lost so many people in my life to cancer; and it seems like every time I log onto facebook I read about someone new being diagnosed or lossing their battle. Honestly, I am extremely tired and saddened by it. The past two years I have poured my heart out on my personal page telling my story, remembering the battle with cancer my mother had, and learning to come to terms with how awful cancer is. This year I have decided not to look at my past, but rather express some of the things that only recently I have started thinking about and look at the future. 5 years ago I lost my mother to cancer. No matter how many years pass by each time I type that sentence my whole body tenses up and I almost cry. I think when you lose a parent so young a part of you doesn't believe it. That somewhere deep in my heart I believe that when I am sitting home in my living room my mom would come home and open the door like she just got home from work. It's funny, 5 years later deep down I sort of still believe it, even though I am in college and I am no where near home. More recently however I have been more aware of how much time has actually passed because of the big moments in my life I am slowly moving towards. For the first few years after my mom passed I tried to just push away all of my feelings and I tried to keep my life from changing so I would grow too much beyond what she remembered of me. I was scared, because she was such a big part of my life. I was afraid to take chances on new things because if failed I now did not only fail myself but the person she thought she raised me to be. The past year however, I have been thinking about it more because as I grow older I wonder what she would think about the person I have become. Whould she like the college I am attending? Would she like my friends? What kind of relationship would we have had? And then it bothers me because I will never know. It upsets me even more because I am starting to leave the dillusion that she will come back, the little girl that was scared 5 years ago is now a strong woman who is trying to face reality. Realtiy is that she won't be at my college graduation. She wont help be buy my first appartment or be able to gossip with me about the guy that I am dating. She won't be there to help me pick out a wedding dress, or give me advice on how to buy my first house. She won't get to meet my kids and tell me how she raised me to be a decent human being thats not a picky eater. She wont be there to babysit or have family dinner with my brother and I. And it sucks honestly because my younger self thought we had a lifetime together when in reality she wiuld only be in my life for 14 years. 14 years. Slowly that is becoming such a small portion of my life. So now I am here for the third time, accompying other walkers who have been at this a lot longer than I have, to try and destroy this awful disease. I'm walking for myself, in memory of my mom, and for the hopes that I can live to see the day that a cure for breast cancer is developed. My dream is to live in a world where every child doesnt have to see their family torn apart by cancer. I want everyone to have the lifetime they deserve.
It's not easy to raise $2300 and then walk 60 miles but somehow I love it. Without many of them knowing it the team that I walk with, Friends with Heart, saved my life. They gave me a bigger family when mine seemed destroyed and the love ans support I need to fundraise and go to an event like this. Through the 3 day I have met the loudest most kind hearted group of people that are so close to my heart- so if any of them read this far thank you.
So please, if you read this far consider making a donation to my page, I apperciate every single penny. Please support me as I take on an incredible challenge to make an impact in the fight to end breast cancer. The Susan G. Komen 3-Day® isn’t just a 60-mile walk over the course of three days—it’s a journey to the end of breast cancer. In 2016, Komen announced a Bold Goal—to reduce the current number of breast cancer deaths by 50% in the U.S. by 2026. That’s why I’m walking, and raising money—to make that goal a reality.